Now...Random as this may seem, I think I need to do this, more of me than anything...
This Person may know who they are...I'm pretty sure they do...<3

It takes all the courage in the world to be able to express how madly, truly, and deeply i feel this amazing compassion for you.
Even in knowing you only four years I feel as if we known each other forever.
When I first saw you that one day my freshman year, I knew that I defiantly wanted to get to know you better.
Once we started talking on the phone and did know each other well, it seemed that whenever I was in desperation, you always came through.
Your compassionate and a caring person even though you don't admit it. XD
There have been times I've deathly worried about you to the point of tears but this is because I can whole heartledly say I love you and mean it from ever aspect of my heart.
I would give my life for you because I would do anything to keep you smiling even if it means sacrificing my own happiness or well-being.
When ever you need me I'm always available, whether its 5 am or 11 pm.
I can't express enough how often I think of you and wonder how you are and how your doing.
When I'm with you I swear its like magic.
Your eyes are so incredibly captivating and I love how every time you take my hand you always pull it to your chest near your heart where I can feel your heartbeat.
I always love being with you because no matter what is happening or going on in my life, none of it is horrible or matters because you always make me laugh or smile.
It pains me to know your are so close yet so far away.
I know you are afraid of losing our friendship but fact of the matter is that's been long gone, obviously we are more than friends, but what are we?
Once we took that bigger step in our relationship, that's when everything became different.
Best friend usually dont do what we do...so what do we call ourselves?
I fell for you, and fell hard as shit because...here's a little secret,
No matter who I've dated recently in the past, I could never EVER stop thinking about you....
Your like an addiction I don't want to get over.
I care about you too much and too dearly to give up until I feel like I will get no where.
Some people say I should give you an ultimatum...
Because I care about you I would never corner you or force you to do something you never really wanted to do.
Others say what and see...
I would love to wait but life is to short....
I will wait until I give up..Trust me that could be a while
There is nothing in life I have ever wanted more than to be with you.
And even though I'm only 18, I know what I want.
And for the longest time I want you, and have for a while.
I hope you read this and take a chance to think about all of this because it is not about how I see you anymore (I think I've made that point very clear)
Its how you truly feel about me....
I don't want you to hide you feelings anymore.
No matter how you feel
Im Always Here
I'll Always Love you (even if i get married and have kids)
And no matter what, You always have a place in my heart.

So YESTERDAY WAS A SHITTY DAY AT WORK! I had more table than I could handle at IHOP. 5 tables complained about something. Not only that, my boyfriends mother txt me of his phone and tell em to stop seeing her son or shes calling my parents and the police. WTF!!! This is soooo gay uh!!! I fucking hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Rainbow Goes To Sulk @ 6:40 pm

So Late update ...I'm going to homecoming with Chris! Hes so adorable lol! thes really cute too!! We chill at lunch sometimes and text a whole lot XD lol hes IDK I'm not a shy person but I get giddy and shy around him why? I have no clue. Its weird that hes 14 and I'm 17...Is that legal O_O Age isnt anything but a number because he doesnt even act like a freshmen I might take him to Prom ;) he dont know it yet!! lol So senior year is ok. Not too great. I want homecoming court...didnt get it. Yrbk sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who cares. Then english and psychology are my only realy classes but I fall asleep in psychology and didnt do summer reading the english ::Cries:: oh and I have no clue how to pay to college...I might not go...I dont know yet. Oh yeah and Eric called me again...for gay reasons He says he misses me calling him lol so I said I would call him. Well Band Practice in 25 min! Got to go! Chow lovelies!!




Rainbow Goes To Band Practice @ 6:40 pm

Hahaha so this is a TOP SECRET ENTRY!! Those who read it cannot tell the people involved, n I trust my friend on here so you better not tell!!!Or else I'ma rip u a new one in a weird place o_O XO

Now that THAT is clear, Here what happened....

It all started the weekend of the 30th and 31st. My co-worker Charley,was like "Hey Ariana you got a date to homecoming?" I said no then he was like " You trying to go together." I said maybe. That was just the begining. Then on Labor Day the GHS band does parades. So Chris, one of the drummers, was like "Do you need someone to go to homecoming with." I was like "Possibley" The he text me back and said, "Well if you do do you idk possibley want to go with me." It was so cute and the I said, "Possibley :)" he was so happy lol. So then last night, Eric calls me (now guys I know you dont really like him but hes still a good kid). He asked me if I had a date I said No. OMFG! Its 2 weeks till the dance n 3 people have come to me about it 0_o I mean if too many people ask me I might go solo but IDK who to go with! Lol!




Rainbow Goes To Work On The Yearbook @ 7:55am

OMFG! We're seniors guys!!! Class of 09!

So I got my classes as follows:
Yearbook (editor)
SAT Prep
Consumer Math
AP Lit & Comp (12)
Health
AP Psychology
Studio Art

SO,for AP Lit my teacher is Mr Collier. I think he looks like Mr. T and Morphius from the Matrix put together XD lol Its super funny! Homecomings really soon! I want a date this year! lol I want a dance partner! I'm in Consumer Math talking about resumes lol. I like senior year so far. New begining new habits XD I quit smoking for good! I'm going to try to do alot. I' already yearbook photo editor,flagline, maybe NAHS, AND maybe the play too! Oh g2g got work to do!

SO...I'm talking to this guy named Nehemiah (I flippin love his name XD ) He is so amazing but hes doesnt know is he likes me or another girl more so he asked me to wait for his and I am because I feel its worth it XD We talk like everyday. So yearbook camp is coming in 2 weeks!! I'm so uberly excited!!!! lol And afterward I'm going with Raya and her cool mom to PA to go college visiting. It will be so much fun!! Summer is almost over n OMFGGGGGGGG WE'RE FLIPPING SENIORS WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! CLASS OF 09 IS WHERE ITS AT SON!!! ::negro moment:: Ahem, anyways summers good so far, lets keep it that way!!

This is percicely why I hate May and my birthday!!
A. A rack of people forgot
B. I only got 3 gifts
C. My dad only gave me a card
D. Then he had people over for a jam night
E. And my mother of course isnt hear to make me feel better Xd so I cried myself to sleep
F. Oh and I didnt get to see James which made me sad :(

Yeah, happy fing bithday to me

I hate that HSA has closed lunch!!! Garhrrrr!!!! Yeah it's all good though. I'm really cold! Its first period HSA's and I'm in the yearbook office freezing my ass off on the computer trying to preoccupie my mind!! LOL XD I got my job back. I now work at IHOP (again)I have to finish my powerpoint for english. Its kool, I'm almosyt done. Bells gonna ring ttyl beyoches.

I HATE the month of May for severla reasons. One Mother's day. I dont have a mom so its a sad day. Next is exams. AP, HSA, senior exams UH! I hate them. Right now I'm craming for AP Modern World. Then comes projects. It the last full month of school so every teacher thinks its a good idea to give you projects, oh what fun it is that school hates you. And lastly my birthday. I'm not excited at all. Nothing special ever happens on it n Oh yeah senior exams are during that week while i pass out year books...goodie! Plus my family get me nothing n I'm not doing anything for it because theres nothing i can afford to do so I'm pretty bumed. I used to love my birthday now its just another day :( I really do hate May.....Uh n AP WORLD EXAMS!! UH. But good luck to everyone taking em! hahahahhehehhe XD love yeah!

Ok...So every year people ask me what I want for my birthday and I say nothing (which is a lie) but I just metimes dont like thinkin bout my bday. SO here is a list of ideas you dont have to ge me anything but if yor like Monica as in "idk in getting u something" here ya go....



Hot Topic: Anything from there usually will do the trick. Gift cards, tank top, damn even the clearence I really dont care! XXD

Forever 21: I dont usuall go here so if you do, shirts are best.

Charlotte Russe: I loe there tops so ur pretty good there.

Aeropostel: ts ok i dont really go there so much...

Staples: OMG WHO EVER GETS ME THOSE PENS I WILL HAVE YOUR BABIES!! XXD I really want them lol

Specers: Well yeah..any thing from spencers will also do the trick!

Now other places that are goo are...
FYE
Target
Clairs
D.E.B

General Likes..
I love rainbows
HIM is my fav band
Kat Von D is my lover
Jeffree Star is my sex slave
Stripes are my fav pattern
Neon is awsome

But in truth you could get me a stick n id like it!




Rainbow Goes To Weep Silent Tears @ 4:09pm